I would be lying if i say there was no pain.
My rise and my fall

I canceled the whole page i just wrote, today? Was changed according to what just happened.And i keep avoiding it in a bid to salvage whatever emotions and feelings i can before peering into that one box of painm I'm afraid of the extent, the extent that it will sting, im afraid it will hurt so badly, im afraid that i will not be able to overcome it, im afraid, it'll sta a knife through me so hard that i'd rather feel physical pain again, i would jump right down, or twist the blades round and round, just dont tell mewhat you said,How hard, tell me, how hard can you breathe? With that amount of oxygen in the air,how low can you go, before it kills you.

But you cant avoid it forever, its the truth, walk towards it,take a deep breathe and if it hurts, like it consume you, let it destroy you, becausue you know that this is the way. That one way that leads you to what you want and that, will be the thing driving you.

Church,cut,canceled outing,falsehope,pain,tears,
IM damn tired.
Thanks special dude over there, hug.