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Secrets to yourself,
Scars hidden to yourself,
You walk alone.
Find yourself or fall.
No one knows what your doing.
They dont want to know.
They all want to live.

He wants to help you.
Why do you brush him off.
She wants to talk.
Why did you walk away.
Were you taught to?

Then if its so,
how do you breathe from there.
What do you do with all this choices.

Yesterday i was told to leave the house, I smiled, home is definitely more comfortable than the streets, Im not your bad kid caught by police on the streets at night. It isnt me,you know when the line pulls and breaks. Then do you know what your been through. My parents gave up on me, haha, im sorry i really am i told them. and i really hope they get it, that beneath all this pain they might be feeling, i want them to let go. You can care about me, but dont feel for me. Because i dont want to hurt you, i beg you. I know im being selfish insisting that things have to go my way, but really, i think we can all agree that thets the best choice that can happen now.I like the messy hair style when you wake up in the morning. i like the i have the choice to continue to sleep in feeling today.

I cant live with my delusion and illusions for long, i have to let it sink in real hard, actually, i want to hurt myself, let it sink right in, and burn a hole right through. Everyone thinks its alright, another phase, will pass, but im not that kind, im not the kind that thinks that lifes is fake, that emotions are not real. I think they are. And that they are the most important thing that one has. Lets keep our eyes from wondering off.

I wonder how your doing, how your feeling, mr hurt. Listening to the songs that we listen to. But i got to stop listening to the songs, cos they bring is hurt now. I want to let myself bleed over you, saying that maybe the pain will be easier to comprehend when i can see the extent of it on the table, in blood. And i know its sounds really gross, but you know its that kind of feeling, that, really, cuts you up. And you know the weight of both sides of the pain and if you compare them together, you figure out that maybe that side is better cos you clear it up faster, intense or not, it'll be faster. but i dont want to hurt the audience, i really dont. But then its not about whether it disappears faster or not, its about, where it comes from, you. And that fact is stopping everything from moving. The world asks you to move on. But like what you are, i live be my definitions, and not the general rules. i dont care about them, i know the serve for a reason the greater good, and im for the greater good, but im not for something im not for. I am me, and i have gotten lost in something that isnt me, but, im staying true to me now.The one you loved fro the start. And i'll hold on with what i feel, regardless of what everyone else says. Yeah, i have people that mean to me. I have people that mean to me. And when they look away, i die inside, no doubt about that.

And the truth is i miss you guys. That is real. And as much as things in the world can fall, that is real. But sometimes, feelings take over. Not saying im taking someone else more important over you.

Someone once told me what love was.
As much as we can spin around and go crazy trying to forget the pain we are feeling, it'll be something that comes back right to us, and hit us. Unconditional, I'll be your back up plan, always your back up plan, even if the whole world crashes, your back up plan, me. I'll be your never wavering back up plan.

todays saturday, where do i go?
Got my phone back, so im here.
Really am, (waiting). [shut up]

Thats why (you go away); 25 mintues.
I kinda want to go to the concert.
Alot.

25 minutes is really, the hit of the century, i love the song to bits.
Its what i would say to you right now.