Today I learnt to inflict physical pain as a distraction to miss datelines.
I learn to lie because of promises.
And I learn to smile because of pain-

Its been a long fight, and its not going to be over soon. I really wonder, I wonder whether I can make it to the other side eventually or not. Should I take a step forward if I know I might fall or stumble hard? Or do I just go on asking and settling consequences as they come. Then do I look towards future mishaps or troubles or do I just take it as it comes? People ask for answers when they already have them, its in the head again. Always the head. Some are trained, others not. Self train, train trained, same thing. Lifes looking up, if you see it from that POV, when you lose everything, what do you stand on? Then, how do you stop the pain again?

I lts Ily, wId.
And most of all, I learn to shut myself up.
And wait. Even if it means tearing apart.

-tmr running alone, I really wonder how I am going to in the crowd, must rmb to breathe. Rn, (insert smiley face here)

Come Back To Me-
you say you gotta go and find yourself
you say that you're becoming someone else
don't recognize the face in the mirror
looking back at you

you say you're leavin
as you look away
i know theres really nothin left to say
just know i'm here
whenever you need me
i'll wait for you

so i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

take your time i wont go anywhere
picture you with the wind in your hair
i'll keep your things right where you left them
i'll be here for you

oh and i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

and i hope you find everything that you need
i'll be right here waiting to see
you find you come back to me

i can't get close if your not there
i can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
i can't fix you i can't save you
its something you have to do

so i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me
come back to me
so i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

and i hope you find everything that you need
i'll be right here waiting to see
you find you come back to me

when you find you come back to me
when you find you come back to me
when you find you come back to me