11 March
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

I need to stop this, now. It just isn’t me, and doesn’t mean that I have an excuse to rant, doesn’t mean that I should be allowed to rant. Forget it.

I should stop this, all this, rating and then deleting, what am I thinking.
Im sorry I snapped at some people, but really, if I did it to you, it really means you should shut up already. Cos im doing it for the sake of everyone- im not the only one who wants to snap at you. But then again, im sorry. I shouldn’t be doing that.

My life is changing. The future is changing, very fast. Limitations, boundaries. Something like that, you decide how high you want to go. You push the barrier higher, you achieve more, you let it come down and smash you, you get nothing.

Talk about roses now, no matter how beautiful they are. They will die. Eventually.
No matter how pretty;
No matter how much water you put in the vase;
No matter how much fertilizer you put;
No matter how much sunlight you give it;
No matter how healthy they look;
No matter what you do;

It WILL die eventually.
And that seriously stabs me in the heart.

Lets get back to life shall we?

[Here, I proudly say that im proud of RN for the match,Its not the match that matters, it’s the bucket that counts. If you get what I mean. Im not 100% talking figurative here btw. Then again, my “jie”s did well. And so did “balls” hhahha, if you don’t know it then admit it, don’t anyhow think. Kay.]

I did stupid things, fooled my parents I fell down the stairs, but hey, I did get the injuries I told them, shoulder pain and BIG bruise. Really big bruise, you can see it from quite a distance. One of the worst ones I got, and as of always, cos I didn’t expect it to be there and had started rubbing it before it swelled, theres like a “ohkay” spot in the middle of the bruise. It only started like turning HARDCORE PURPPLERED after the game. Funny thing. But its hurts a lot. Im just thanking God I didn’t break my bones. Really, my first response was,; shit did I break something, cos the whole leg was like there was a tumour growing on it. How fantastic. I’ll get rid of it, soon. Pray.

But funny thing is; im going back there to do what I did again- without injuring myself. Theres only two types of response to every bad situation in life;
1. Run away, hide from it and never do that again.
2. Walk towards it again, face it and trying doing it the right way again

Im taking options 2. Mayb that’s what the makes up me, I don’t care about how I might die tmr or later, maybe its my ignorance of death, cos I know im not worth living. Maybe.. But whatever it is, whatever im feeling, I’ll sieve it and compress all the good things together. Make it stronger and harder. And crush the negative stuff like OBS cans.

Whatever it is, the futures changing.
Very fast.
Its whether you can keep up with it,
That matters.