8 feb.
i typed out a whole post of what i did ytd, and then! i deleted it.=.= haha. cos like i see no relevance in telling people. haha

She gives me a happy feeling.
[Im not a les btw. NOT A LESBIAN.]
she just makes me feel like primary sch again, the childishness and the readyness to do anything.like- lets go run up the staircase for fun now.and then we just go do that.HAHAHA, normal people will think we are crazy, but hey, i like. go figure out who it is.

on the other hand, my family went overseas for fun=.= and by family i mean my whole family, 6 families. cousins. aunties, uncles. EXCEPT me and my dad- who left this morning anw.so i guess i got lots of time to myself? yay me? i have mixed feelings about this. so. yea. ohwell.

Its hard to think wads it gonna be like in a years time, or two years time. I feel insecure that i dont know exactly whats going to happen. It kinda pisses me off,and all. But then again, i think its just myself that hides my future i think i would have because i dont like it.Im going to cry on the last day of school this year. I can feel the..that overwhelming feeling alrd i dont want to lose this happy feeling i have now. It isnt the most "ideal" happy feeling i want, BUT, well, i can SO imagine it getting worst. So i shut up. Change isnt a very happy thing in this context..

And yea, im sorry person. I really dont want you to ever be sad over such an ass like me.I dont deserve this.But im not going to quarrel with you.Cos i know more than you think i know.

I dont know what might suddenly pop up and make my next week life miserable. But hey, i guess, you get what you make out of it. So..lets look on to a happy week ohkay.

;It hurts to be reminded of your lost when it was your only source of strength last time.Even though now you can stand up alone.I really hope that things would return to normal soon.But im tired of making the first move.I dont want to be the only willing person in this.So im not ging to do anything.Because. now, its my turn to wait.. not yours.