27 FEB
God keeps making things change.
And it hurts.

But I have to hold on- that sucks, i HAVE to hold on.I dont have a choice.And i hate doing this shit crying thing over and over again- WHY THE HELL, WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING=.= wth is wrong with me. pffft.

Im going to fight back. Retaliate. The next chance i have, im going to fight it out. Its been really long ready. And yea, i think its time. Its time to stand up. Time to walk away and leave.

It kinda hurt. alot. when you said: no. cos i really didnt hear it. But i guess, there isnt- anything that can prove that i didnt hear it and was just faking it eh? So you wouldnt believe me. What is going on?..

----
On to a higher note, i guess, batch lunch was gay :) I liked it, my temporary refuge before i have to leave and face reality again. It always help to have gay people around.I should have gone home with han though, i miss going homw with her=.= haha.I'll see them tmr and smile BIGBIG :D
-----------------------------

Im not the kind of person who let herself die in front of her. So i will not let that happen again. Cos if i really want to die. I can do it, anytime, there doesnt need to be pain. Just one more step and i could get hit by a car. and solong. And since i choose to live. I will live my life according to the way i want it to be. Without what hurts me.

Not a part of me.