This picture kicks my ass and sents me into a fit of laughter, hope it brightens your sad day. AHAHHAHAA. i was young and naive with grace xD
I write you listen-
10 JANUARY :)

This week has been overwheliming trust me. I was like WHAT THE FRAKING HELL to break down. I was freaking pissed at myself on.. thursday? becos i felt that someone was not careful with her words and killing me and then i started getting freaking emo. =.= thinking about it just maes me think why am i so immature; im not going to let someone like that take control of my feelings. Not worth it. I am strong enough to think over it, and know that that is just wrong.

I know the situation for me is quite screwed up lah,my love sucks, im starting to feel the effect of superficialness again. But hey,i guess thats part and parcel of life, and if your not going to move on- HONESTLY,
NO ONE IS GOING TO CARE
becos they dont have so much time to think about you and how are you feeling and all.Really seriously, no one will care for you if you suffer.Its part of human nature which freaking sucks yes.I figured that out, and you should know that too, im trying to help you and i dont expect you to treat me the same way back. Another thing about human nature is that the superior or whoever thinks that they are of higher standard will always bully the less superior i.e "inferior'.. Im sorry i vent my anger on some people. but i dont do it to the extreme that i start screaming f* at them- i dont, i just like the small things lah.

Well, i figured out when i was breaking down, that that person i know- i am now, is not me. NOT ME, im not someone who vens their mood on other people, let other people put them down, i am someone who will stand up and brush whatever useless aside. I am here from God to make people happy and worship him. (i have no idea where that came from :O) so yea. Im going to be me, just ME, with or without anybody.

I dont really care whatever you think, the only thing i challenge you is:
Can you start the new year, clean?
Can you forgive and forget how someone plays in the last quarter and let her start afresh? YOU CANT.

Well, im telling you I CAN. learn that from me. =.= My first egoness (OH YAY MAN,* dances around) yea. think about it, most people cannot.

anw, NEXT WEEK obs. Excited? yea, jus hope that i dont kena. Im praying PLEASE DONTPLEASEDONT, but trouble will be quite fun, honestly i found fiqqys story about obs very interesting- i'll love to go through that experience. ohkay.. maybe not.HAHAHA. I want to come back stronger and skinnyer. haha xD i lost weight loh. my muscles gone. heart pain man. i cry. When i grow up and dont play sports anymore (competitively) i'll not train for 3 months, if i dont lose weight from NOT training my muscles and letting them disappear and grow slimmer, i would go hardcore training to get everything into muscles. :)

so yea, im kinda looking forward to it.i got to share this whether you are tired of seeing me talk or whatever. I think God is trying to make me grow closer to him. And i think its time i let myself fall. fall right into his hands and let him catch me. Cos i really do trust him now. Thru this week and all. For giving me lovely people like: Jiaa,Iva,SHIN,Han jie,Banana.. and so on.. really lovely people out there.

He wants me to fall so i can see how good my life is. I've been reading Isaiah.My God really is awesome and i really hope to spread news of him. HE can make sinful cities fall and humble the arrogant. I love him, And thats what im directing my life as now; after him yes, reexamining how a hard you can go for a dream, and being myself. :) I want to be the one able to stand up when not everyone can and say, i trust him. Praying has becoming my part time.

I cant run long distance in excess now, abit sad by im living by, slowly by slowly. can one. one step at a time.Im praying lah. I really want to do my runs again. i feel weird. Man, i got to rely on faith. really. and im going to be an example in that. Im going to be the one that says: its ohkay you dont like me, dont want me to be in the team, but your not going to take away me away. Because im not letting you.

yea, so much for the talk; summary of what i did in the week? complete and overshot commonwealth essay by 100 words? HAHAHA i wrote 1600 plus words. HAHAHA. and i was in teh middle of the story lah, so i went to cut shorter and keep the main parts and interesting part.. maybe i'll put some parts of what i wrote here. but its not fantastic, just me. NOt romantic, just me. plain, gay me who dances around on the lines on the floor and going high even with the monotonous people and most of all. Being me, a happy child of God.

Quote my essay baby:
Both of them, caged in their own world. Their minds; unwilling to let any other distraction enter and change their focus. Music, their only other connection to the world they lived in. Misleading, they thought, but it sent an overwhelming effect on them. Like a jingly feeling of satisfaction and happiness mixed together. Maybe amidst all the random screaming and profanities, there was someone who could empathize with the emptiness they felt. Maybe, the singers knew what was missing.

hhaha, so lame right :) but it was suppoe to be a love stroy but it'll be cliche so i made it a friends story and yea. :D

The rst of the week were spent going crazy over random stuff, laughing at the teachers, being gay with SHIN, screaming like JIAMING! Going high with Han jie and dancing with cheerleaders, and trainings of course- cheerleading is hard mind you. Imagine screaming and running around the track. Yup. a new skill im going to pick up, jiaa want to run with me xD Im going to practise hard and dance with amamamam at the finale ;D I love tricking shin like today too! and mrting with jinghan is just making a scene on public transport like REALLY happy balls full of energy. LOL.

now i got stuff to do. so, see you around. next week? pray for me, and i'll be eternally grateful. really. ohkay, take care of yourselves and quit acting like someone else, be yourself, if you cant do it forever, do it just once on behalf of me, just this week ohkay :)


INSIDE HILARIOUS JOKE:

SHIN: oh..HAHAHAHA, the Vibrator *starts shaking like some constipated shaking dude moving only 10 degrees right and left, with a gay happy expression*


WORTH A MILLION DOLLARS MAN.