DECEMBER 20
My whole life flashed before me;
If I were there one second earlier;
One cm nearer;
I would have been a goner.

Sometimes I volunteer to stand and wait, just for it to come, for it to end. It was not one of those days. Not one of those kind of feeling. No suicidal thoughts. It was a good day, it was a good feeling, it, was simply unexpected. But if I were right there, not moving, one second, I would have been a goner. Its hard to remember exactly, but I know I hav one person to thank and that is Jesus. I never thought that I would end this way. Just not me, not me out of the whole world I mean.. why me? Im just a kid, a teenager, im not ready to go.. not yet, theres definitely more to life than just ending everything there. Its too drastic, too, unexpected, too unpredictable, too much. Its hard to believe things CAN happen to you- me. Impossible but yea.

Though I know I’ll laugh it off- I did, with bro after that. Though I know I wouldn’t let this happen again.. its not going to disappear and feel like it never happen. I haven’t told my parents yet, don’t intend to. Don’t want to. Its just not me, I still cant believe it wil happen to me. People warn you, you think they are naggy, but you don’t know how true it is, how freaking scary and bloody true it is;

LIFE IS PRECIOUS; freaking precious.

I almost got knocked down by a freaking car ytd. And yea, I still cant believe till today. It was freaking unexpected, I knew the road was dangerous but I was always alright 10m away from the nearest car, wth happened? I don’t know. I was like half way across the road I looked right then left then walk; then out of nowhere when to the left, suddenly a car was coming straight at me. Super fast like how usual cars will drive after the traffic light turn green, THAT fast, and im not exaggerating, you would scream the hell out of you if you were me. For the first time, I just stoned. : this cant be FREAKING HAPPENING. Im going to die (and then I swore =.= ) but THANK GOD, she pressed brake and just in time the car didn’t touch me. One cm, I promise you ONE CM away I was stunned. You could see the effect on the driver like she jerked forward and then backward pressing the brake. I was like.. theres was no horn no sound, just- the car came out of bloody nowhere, I know its my fault lah, but I was alrealy in the middle of the freaking road, cannot see ah? She gave me the super pissed off face, after she herself got the shock of her life.

I spend like 2 seconds stoning there, then I realized that everyone was waiting for me to move..cos she suddenly stopped then was blocking the whole way.. then I was showing her the sorry sign then run away. I couldn’t walk str after that. I was unconsciously covering my head with my towel, freaking stunned lah.

Its not the kinda unlucky day. It was a good day. I got new shoes! Was wearing I ohkay!.. I don’t want my life to end like that, not yet. At least.. I didn’t die..

IF YOUR PRAYING ; THANK GOD FOR ME, FOR SHOWING MERCY.
Im freaking serious, after that I was suppose to go to the gym I went to the changing room and start praying man. I wanted to cry, I could have died at that spot, that moment. That driver, my loved one were nowhere near there, everyone was somewhere else. And then.. yea. I could have died.

THANK GOD.
i can still remember the car the smoke from the engine it was so near, i could feel the heat from the car lah. But, im not injured. Mentally stunned, but physically ohkay. Amazing God.yea..

Heh, i didnt really sms anyone for the rest of the day cos i didnt feel like talking.. sorry! yea. except at night when i was better, and WOAH, jiaa, i seriously didnt know you tagged at my blog.. i was smsing you cos i felt like.. WOAH. hahahaha.
well, the only bad thing that happen to me now is my bone in my foot is kinda.. out so yea, thought about goign doctor, but aiya see how first- not cause of the accident.that kinda why i run "funny" according to iva x) haha, really. its jerking out form my right foot, shall do sth alirght. i gotta go . partee :)

jiaa:
HAHAH, yea, I WANT!can WE open one here in singapore? THEN DONT HAVE SO MANY FLIES! i didnt eat one, i ran away from them x)OH YAY, i run with you when training start :)

huimin: HAHAHA, sure! it could be called RN farm :)

ONCE AGAIN; THANK GOD.