Approach life in a friendly way or you'll suffer :)
i found this picture in my phone.i thought it was just one of the random shos of the day but if you look carefully its reallyreally pretty. like,the lighting at all. and i didnt even edit it. it was just BANG everything right. me like, impressed. i tried taking another one, but i couldnt. it really says alot. Maybe i think too much :)

Like how i can find a show like madagascar 2 super knowledgable and educational diguised in a simple childish mindlike manner. forget it, im not making sense, but really it says alot.like how..it shows how..love can mean letting go and yet holding on. and how friendships can be so fragile without even knowing -supercial friendships sucker- yea, and not knowing whats important to your friend and stuff. its educational. so shut up and listen for once. :)

hmm what else hav i been doing-thiniking. i sleep really late now.i dont sleep at night. heh, morning dear. i need to get rid of this "habit".but whatever. i feel better in the holidays-but running is a different picture to me now. i realise running with the team makes me run differently. when running in the team, it really hard to see who is actually putting in the most effort- the leader or the follower. the follower because you dont know where your going, you dont get to prepare yourself for the twists and turn, unprepared means more energy,why? -think,im not gna give you all the answers noob. the leader bacos it only makes sense that the front people have to run faster so that the others have space behind-along that line-THINK. :) so when i run witht the team its a different race.,

a different league.

why am i thinking so much about it-one reason though i deny it myself so many times, i care. not many people do- THINK why :)its not worth it- i should really get it in my head. NO ONE IN THE WORLD CARES ABOUT YOUR LIFE.- lifes hard- YOU KNOW IT, DO SOMETHING. hah, bet you didnt hear the "do something" part often, im special. Damn, im losing my stamina cos i cant do long-d, stomach problem again. hit me super hard on fri, saturday i couldnt run. damn it right? tmr got 2.4~ i hope i wun die. wonder if i should run today or just go for fun tmr. haha, im thinking too much, for fun lah vic, dumb or what? :) so should i panick? hmm, aiaya, dont think so much. later got stomach problem again. haha.

Somehow i feel i shouldnt be doing what im doing. i should stop doing that and distracting myself from the problem thats going to get worser and worser. the relationship btw me and ____. its not gong to get better.then again im not going to apologise because _____ is going to be so blur. why? BECAUSE guys cannot see anyone when they are in love-the result? friendships lost- THATS WHY GUYS SUCK :) ohkay..maybe there are a few nice guys. only those guys *look up suck. forget it -dont worry about this typeof thing- common sense vic,common sense :)

church was fun :) Nicole ask me whether im going for the perth trip-well im not missing church camp. thats all i can say :) i think i've got lots of things to think about and church camp will give me the time and the atmosphere. even if it means that i have to miss the perth trip-perth right? somewhere lah x) i would go if they push it back further. somehow i've been hving weird dreams. like people dying when they fly to another country. friends dying, family dying, people dying. not a good sign. dont like the feeling, so i've been kinda crying lah, i dont know why lah. i know deep down i do love them, just that i dont want to show it cos they dont deserve it. hah, found the right way of saying it. HAH. wahtever la. anyway i was thinking of how it will feel like being an orphan, and well i cried then i looked up and saw someone- conclusion? -figure it out yourself. :)

oh, i HAVE to say something, [no offence intended]reason- think : Stop lying to yourself trying to get so much attention, show some respect. Your just making yourself look like some shameless slut trying to attract men of all ages for money. THAT > is digusting. hahaha, from my heart aiming to stab yours big sister.

i thnk im kinda down talking here. well, one thing i love about holidays-since the holidays was: i get to watch rugby. :) i like the nzl team, blacks. as in the uniform and the name and they look good :)hmm, aussie looked good too. scotland? ohkay lah. i still dont get the point of running through banging people and then passing the ball to someone else when the umpire person say its still your teams possesion. funny. but i like the banging. i just dont like the part when some players shorts get pulled and i mean really, yuck, butts on national tv, thats gotta hurt the person. but it doesnt really happen that often. Maybe five times a game-form what i see lah. i just like seeing the sexy determined smile when you get hit and get up, and the victory face and the, im going to get it back face.

well, thats all, oh yes. commitement just became the most difficult criteria in the world. :) My world.

-WSXV/.
so i run?