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Hey,its one week alrd,it passes so fast eh, you know somehow I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way, I mean, the situation that’s going on is so different yea, and here im saying this and that, wasn’t this wad I always wanted? And why the hell am I acting like an idiot, a hypoc I got wad I want and im here saying no I don’t want this, then what the hell DO I want.I realized that sometimes, what you think you might want isn’t exactly how you expect things to be and work out.

And then do you place friendship before yourself your dreams everything? Or is your dreams more important, I mean you know how I am, talking about my immense hate for superficial friendships, you KNOW how I am towards those situations. But when you have to put a façade and deal with them and then smile and laugh, well let me tell you how I feel, ITS DIFFICULT. Its stupid, its ridiculous. It’s the stupidest thing ever. Tsk.,pfft. Chinese compre was about this girl who thought everything thru when she almost died while trying to climb mount everest and stuff, she gave up at the last point,stage, why? Cos she couldn’t even control herself, the she FINALLY realized lifes significance and stuff. She realized that her hopes and her dreams were not important, what was important was the family. That was important. And somehow when she said that it made my heart stop, yes in the middle of the exam=.= its jus me that you know, empathise. I know what shes feeling, but what, no im not gna die any second, I mean I did think of being sucidal once, I realize it was ridiculous I mean like, dude, look at the situation and tell me is it worth it. Then I will start saying to myself, I would rather die in jail and be satisfied when the person who has caused me so much pain gets inflicted with as much or more pain, so I WILL get my revenge, and its gonna hurt. So much. Dam, im good at crapping, im sorry but I just HAVE to get it OFF my chest.

I missed running again today, f*Victoria yes, f*her, make her go into prostitute. =.= its an expression. I came home too late, damn, im getting fucking pissed at my “discipline” fuck it la vic, you want to succeed anot, im gna go hard on myself this weekend, don’t want to go? Can! Slash 5 lines lah. You going down, im gonna kill the distractions in my life. *takes knife, STABSTABSTAB*

Haii, it really hurts, Victoria you want to turn into a fat pig isit ): no right! Exercise no exercise still bloody the same look.=.= haha STUPID BROHER LAH, STUPID LIU RUIYI I SHOULDN’T HAVE TRUST YOU LAH, HAHA, YOU ARE SO GNA DIE LAH. And yea, I wun date a guy I CAN beat in a sprint, or long-d.. I insist AND YES BROTHER, I INSIST cos I rather be firm then flabby.haha, ;)

So many things have been going on lah. It was really a roller coaster ride with God, on Friday I was crying for him and damn I FELT HIS PRESENCE,I tell you *HUGS GOD* he was there right next to me guiding me and I wrote my suppositly better Chinese compos and my so far bests English personal exposition. So, YEA! I wrote a six page Chinese compo and a three and half paged PE so, ohkay lah, satisfying. Hmm, Monday? Oh Sunday was really those crycry thing again, but I didn’t hehe. I wun be doing well for geog this term );
[I was goig to type how I felt for all the exams but im like,who cares=.=]
basically its something I didn’t give my best in,an emotionally roller coaster ride,a spiritually enriching time and of course peserverance put in the test. Yup.
But now that its all over, I got stuff planned out to last me throughout my holidays alrd, got lotsa catchup to be doing. (: yea,I know the smartasses like grace and shin(: are going be studying like shitxz, and yea. Haha, I guess I should learn form them.
I know that if I want to do something I will do it better than anyone else,sorry people, im ego about this, :) no offence, let me ego abit for awhile lah.

You know there was once the three of us, and I still think theres this special bond btw the three of us, although we still go out separate ways and all, we have different backgrounds and all two of you guys excelling in your area and me not. Aiya, back to the point, we came into this as one but we just broke off and all, sometimes I think back and well, I feel we all possessed something that got us ino this together, why us and not the hundred other girls who tired? We are special in some way yea? And I don’t intend to find out this special thing we have, cos it wun do me any benefit,I just have to work on the situation now eh? (: But back to the point, we have something in common and I know that even though so many people have left and entered our lives, so many childish quarrels btw us and the manymany uncomplete statements we left unfinished and all the hidden stuff we refuse 2clear and patch up. We are really childsh and petty people (; but aiya, I still love you guys so much man. I bet you guys don’t even know im talking sbout you,I know its so childish to you know talk about this type of stuff, its like back in pri sch when we will go like..
“I don’t know whether she will still friend me anot, later she angry”
haha, yea, can you imagine that wad was one iof the childish things I said when I was in pri sch. Haha. (; you know what, I think I know my speciality (; and im going to work on it. Really, Im going to give it a hard fight next year and push the light ppl off the podium back with you guys..when there was just three of us.. on one side of the court.

I think I made it extremely obvious who it was anw, let not laugh at my childish words okay. (; you guys are wonderful ppl that brighten up my life. Just that sometimes you don’t get the
[Chinese compre was about this girl who thought everything thru when she almost died while trying to climb mount everest and stuff, she gave up at the last point,stage, why? Cos she couldn’t even control herself, the she FINALLY realized lifes significance and stuff. She realized that her hopes and her dreams were not important, what was important was the family. That was important. And somehow when she said that it made my heart stop, yes in the middle of the exam=.= its jus me that you know, empathise.]
feeling I got. Haha. You guys are still so immature o maybe you guys alrd know that (: haha, maybe your alrd one step in front of me but no way im not gna go in your footsteps, no unfriendly ppl for me baby. (: I’ll just run my pace but keep up with you guys. LOVES. Happy guessing who it is Ayways.

I think I have alrd typed enough for your eyes to tear while reading my blog.

Or you can call it consequentialism or utilitarianism baby, (; im so in love with philo, yeayea, shutup and get down on the floor cos im taking philo on a date o the pub tonight. (I don’t make sense and I don’t care x) ) I guess this post I getting a bit long,

So I’ll start another one now! (;

-vicky
(and her nonsense :o)

I decided not to start another one, since it wun be so taxing and ego. Ahah but anyway, Victoria thanks banana lotsa for being with ther throughout the whole exam , I swear to you shes beent e most amazing person in the world and too bad you weren’t me, I LOVE YOUBANANA,

Ohohoh,and the funniest thing in the world that happened I the morning was that someone amazing wshed me happy birthday I laughed like SHITZ. X) my birthdays next Wednesday baby. HAHAHA. But I love you too x) I shall tell you who this lovely person is yea, when its my birthday lah. Hes awesome. “bloody” awesome right? X)

AHAHAH. Its my birthday nex Wednesday, somehow I haven’t even gotten over the fact that im 13 sometimes I say im 12, heh, fine. I shall act like a 13 year old,. Soon. For the few five days? I don want o turn 14, I have personal reasons. Like I don’t want to leave my 13 year odl life cos I think It can be better and hence, I dun wan to be a 14 year old, so lame x) haha. But yea, ohwell.birthday blues, tmr fam celebration. LOVES.

Oh, and prettypretty please, if you want to buy me something for my birthday, can you buy you know the thing that moves I head left to right cos of solar power, you know the thing very cute one! Haha, I duno how to describe! But I want that one!

haha, see i liked it so much i got a picture of it, i want a love one! so, yea.if your nice and want to make me happy, but for me that! cos i have een waiing forever for that, since p5 when i saw it in the airport, but now yu can see it everywhere. i wantiwant! x)

-WSXV
(im really going.LOVES)
carnival then run tmr. then fam celebration~