Ahh, yeayea, today was reali screwed up. Yeayea. Training was screwed up. Victoria was screwed up. Ah yes, everything is screwed up. Ohwell.

And its not that im crying over that, look im not, I knw lotsa ppl feel damn awkward seeing me now because of that, im like..look I don’t have some freaking disease.its jus..results, its part and parcel of life.i mean frankly speaking..of course sad lah, but like.. wad you expect me to do. Cry?=.= no rite? Aiya, at times like that, I jus wish that when they look at me, they think of sth else. But im alrite with talking abt it. I reali am, I wun burst out crying, you gotta trust me, im not going to cry, im not weak. I know im not weak, and im not hiding it from myself, if I can control myself like I did, I can. So stop it. Please.

Damn, I feel retarded saying the paragraph on top, forget it. Aiya, it was so screwed today. Im sorry? Oh wait, I have noone to apologise to. Except god. I’ve been a bad person, getting fustrated at god and hes..absence in my life now. Hes always been here, but I guess its been a rough path lah, but im proud to say im holding on. And always running to him again. the only reason why I didn’t want to talk to anyone when THAT happened, was because.. I rmbed the time _____ scolded me for attracting too much attention. What happened? I sprained my ankle, and people helped me like get ice and stuff, like call for ice and stuff, I mean .. like,.. that’s wad that always happens rite. She said im too pampered, I was like.. reali nothing to say man. Like.. (omgh,wth,that’s stupid) reaction. And I don’t think it was a very appropriate timing for THAT to happen. Cos I don’t wan people thinking that I was like in hurt and tearing cos of all the sadness accumulated from the results or..wadever. I am not, was not, and will not. At least not infront of everybody. Ocs its mine fault, im responsible and im not a crybaby. So why cry infront of everyone, cos you jus gotta pick yourself up and move on. That’s why I was like.. yea im fine. Cos: number one, someone not reali happy with me rdy. Number two, I don’t wan ppl to think that im sad from the results thing. Im strong okay. I insist.

But wad reali hurt was like when someone said: dun try to put on a strong front. Now I took that very seriously. I mean like. Wth, wad kind of loser attitude is that man. Wads your problem, here I am trying to contol myself becos of that reason and making ppl go away and there you are giving me the.. attitude, I don’t care if your close to me. But that, THAT reali hurt. A lot. And I cant believe you actually said that. You don’t know how much that freaking hurts. Im like..so disappointed in you lah. You should jus keep your thoughts to yourself in times like that. I dun like talking abt this. I dun like talking abt you. Jus freaking hurt by you.

Okay, my subject combi is: bio, chem., lit geog, I know. I wanted triple science geog so badly. But yea, my choice> why? Quarreled with parents ytd. Ohwell. And long story lah. But I think.. I suits me? Cos im not intending to go into any science stuff next time. Like become doc or wadever, but might try go major in bi and chem.. and geog :) so yea, and had a talk with ms ong, mr lau (he super funny man) , mr mizar and yea. Lit suits me better, hope I dun regret it, anyway, im sure if god thinks its not the right thing, he will not give it to me. So yea, my 2nd choice was triple sc geog, yup. Sorry bernard~
(my husband will do triple sc, so I dun nid do :) hehe, that was wad I was planning ohwell)

-vicky :)
run (with discipline)