Till I see your face again and grace amazing takes me home.
I’ll trust in you…


Ohman im like thinking for what Kevin ng said ytd lah, thinking about it over and over again. I finally agree to wad cat said, he is good.so GOOD. Like (no offence) old and you know wise. GOD, you are good.. let me tell you wad he told me.

There was once this guy, who lived in this village.Then one day, a flood came.he stood on the roof of his house, the water rapidly went higher and higher.suddenly there was this rescue boat that came by. They shouted for him to get on, but he didn’t he said
“god has a reason for doing this to me”
and he didn’t go onto the boat. So he jus stood there as the tides grew stronger and the water rose higher and higher. Then another boat came by, they asked him to get on again. By then the water was alrd at hes shoulders. But he said
“god has a reason for doing this to me”
and he idnt get onto the boat. So they let.
So eventually.. the water rose..and he died in the flood.When he went up to heaven, he asked god why he didn’t save him. God said,
“I sent the boats to come save you, but you didn’t go on it”Yea, you should get the meaning of the story.i got the meaning, omgh I tell you its SO meaningful, I love you Kevin ng for telling me that lah, althou, he didn’t reali get wad I was saying, THANKYOU SO DAMN BLOODY MUCH.

Yup, life recently? MY SCIENCE EXPERIMENT IS FREAKING DYING.talk abt pts, I have to do all by the holidays over,AND , theres historty pt got to START on and I mean START ON , I haven’t bloody started on it. OH SHIT, campaign team meeting, must arrange. Oh, damn so many pts coming up. Nvm, must bear in there.

Talk about campaigning man, someone impt, suppositly important asked me to back out on it. I was like.. this is what I wan why are you asking m to do this, aiya, its quite stupid thinking about me actually thinking about wad *** said when I shouldn’t cos it’ll onli bring me down.stupid, aiya, im feeling the pressure of it man, I reali why god put me up for this man, but I got to hold on. Im not going to let this crumble me, cos I want to be strong , hear that, I WANT TO BE STRONG. Im going to hang in there, whether I lose or not. Jus try my best and anticipate the best. Yup. Even if I don’t win, I’ll thank god for giving me this chance, cos, hes jus probably trying to help me build up my ego. And yea, have confidance, yup. So, I’ll take this as experience and I’ll go all out, no matter how strong the opponents are. IM COMING PEOPLE.

Talk aout netball I was jus reflecting lah. I’ve been letting everyone i know down, im sorry. Okay, and yes, don’t say that no no, its alrite or wadever nonsense you have there, cos im not interested, cut the façade. The club ppl ask me join their team, so im going for it. And im going to make myself improve. Stamina will start from zero again. Ball sense have to re learn , sight hand coordination must relearn again. I have to use wad I got and make the most of it. Or I’ll jus suffer and no one will notice. I know a lot of things have happen in netball, and it hurts so damn bloody much when I have to sit out cos of a mistake, sucks. Damn, I want to get back at her, but I cant jus use my arms and give thm a punc, I cant cos its retarded. I have to improve, god help me. Damn , I’ve be crying out and out to you, GOD I NEED YOU. So much. Im going to run every morning until im happy, yup, have to, I wan stamina go get it.i don’t even know whether I can get into rjc, work for it. Have to. Want to.

Im going to work hard people, work hard. Very hard, morning runs, afternn runs, I got to make it a habit and stop avoiding it. I don know why either, abs training, more discipline, yes I have to change my mindset, I have to. And I want to.i want to wear myself out and let my mind to the suffering when i run. Instead of my legs burning, I want to feel it more in m head then any where else. And I’ve to do it myself\, its more of a mental thing than anythings else, I don have time to match up to you. I don’t have the height, I don’t have the body but wad I have is a mind, and im not going to let that slip thru my hands, I wan to beat you more than anything.

Talk about determination, I found it, gotta work on it. Yup. Its kinda stupid, I like reading peoples blog and seeing how their life is and then wishing I had this and that, had that attention, had that pretty face, had that stamina, had those frens, had that money, had their things in general. Then I realized, why the hell am I doing this, jus work for it and get it for yourself lah,=.= heh, yea, im kinda weird, so I told myself that im not going to be so =.= anymore. HAHA.

Alto of things have been happening lah, I find myself meeting people, lots of people I know in the places I usually go. I saw waye and ivan in the mrt, kristy at ccab, was watching rugby, then I saw amirul, then I saw hmm, no kimberyl from PRPS suddenly started smsing me. Haha., its super funny, looking back I started laughing on it. Oh, yea, and I find it nice and nice, that me and terrance are getting closer, hahah, we never were that close althou we have known each other for a super long time. Haha, next time we go shopping again okay?

HHAHA, talk about waye, I stones for a few seconds when he said hi, I was like..? then after that, WOW.heyo, kinda thing lah, super funny, honestly I noticed hes shiny hair , fringe first, not my fault wad, hes hair was shiny not my fault! And ivan, recognize him yo, I like hes eyes! REALI! You look carefully cos that time I was staring at his colourful contact lense mah,, oh talking about eyes mr mizar has nice eyes okay, that time he was scolding me, I was looking at his eyes, funny me .haha. kristy was beign dao lah, althou she did say hi anw, kim was like, ..how you been> we were never that that close one, take cares yo! AMIRUL! HE PLAYS SEXY HOCKEY! RI HOCKEY FTW! He was the tallest one there I swear~! I think he played for space reali, he plays well yo, and hes the tallest one on court from wad I see. GO AMIRUL!. I bused home with selene after that anyway, HAD LOTS OF FUN TALKING TO HER! Thanks selene again~ I realized I was not the only one lah, shes awesomed, thou we talked. NOT GOSSIP quite abut, awesome, I would wan to go again. Haha, AWESOME PEOPLE I KNOW HERE.

Yup, I know this post kinda long, sory lah, I wun be blogging soon mah, not till nextnext week, or maybe wheni feel like I’ll blog short sentences. OH, looking forward to church tmr anws~ I LOVE last weeks session where we went plain sincerely, kinda thing, we just told each other our problems yup and we reali came together and prayed, I love it. I told them about my problem with ******* yea, I almost cries while telling lah, cos I reali love her, I want to help her.. its kinda sisterly love. But yea, at the same time, I was glad that we prayed abt it, and that those ppl are behind me, very touching.Felt gods presence again.

Netball training shave been awesome lah, and this weeks one was only becos of rebek, she made it the best netball thing forever. Reali, wad she did reali, made me sit up and stop crying. GOSH, REBEK I LOVE YOU MAN. I was feeling so so down on the day , match with warwick? I was feeling so down, drowning myself with the sprite drink, had a super bad tummy ache that day, cos you know a few sips of 100 plus makes me stomach ache, so imagine this, I drank cups f it. I had a painful night lah,that’s all I can say, but im glad, god came in and helped me.
DAMN, rebek, THANK YOU.

Hmm, met lots of annoying ppl too, haha, ppl who com and talk to me, then vent their anger on me=.= im like WHAT THE HELL, im not someone you can suck up to and hurt to get rid of your angry idiot! Stop sucking up to me for that. But of course I wun say that, anw one of those ppl is in my class, start with A one to make it more obvious. Come to me when need help, then give me attitude when don’t need my help, haha, im laughning at how pathetic she is, aiya, she will be the one suffering anw., so yea, too bad for her. I’ll pray for her okay, but you know what? I think that hses going to “die” of betrayal soon, seeing her lastest dp, getting used be______ eh, HHAA.okay, I’ll pray for her okay, im not that evil loh, I think im very undrtanding ready okay, evrytime she gif me attitude or when I ask her a question I will purposely sound happy, make her feel shes such an idiot for treating me so badly, haha. Deserve it lah. Aiya, enough of this talk, but she should take care of herself man, or shes going to suffer~

Ah, okay, I shall go do math now, so late alrd rite, nvm, must do, im starting to get mat now, with wei leong here, you know sometimes you SHOULD NOT gif me a male tuition teacher, reali.. haha, what if I don’t know whether its I like the tuition teacher or the subject how? HAHA. Jkjk. OH, WHAT SUB TO TAKE NEXT YEAR! Im taking either triple science geog or double science and geog lit. ahwells, praying lah. But I think I wan to triple scince geog more, but creative people go for lit~ damn, haha, praypraypray. Okay, need go alrd lah.

Thanks for reading? New blog on the way yo! Mix emotions? Im going for colours now, I shall work hard, come on vic! Can one! Its all up there, believe.

Ps: CONGRATS NIC! AWESOME RUNNING PLUS SWIMMING PLUS CYCLING AT OSIM! Now I must work hard on everything to beat you lahs~ LOUSY LAH YOU, go work so hard x) CONGRATS!

-a whole lot of faith
>> MOVE FORWARD, Jesus, come in and do miracles.