Expectations;
I'm sorry for not being able to make you feel proud once.
I'm sorry for not being like nicole.
I'm sorry for not being smart.
I'm sorry for not being good in anything.
I'm sorry that you feel ashamed about me.
I'm just so sorry for not being your prefect daughter..

I know at times, or mayb all the time you feel ashamed of me, being your daughter. Not being smart and achieving high grades in rgs. Not even able to manage my own time. Not being able to do SO many things. Well, im sorry. I know this wouldnt mean a thing to you. But sometimes you jus got to take in account of the pressure i have. You tell me you wan me to be good in this, you tell me to excel in that. You tell me jus beat that person. But every single time, i fail you. Your standards are too high for an idiot like me, dont you bloody understand. It takes time for me to excel in something. You cant jus bloody tell me to be good in this and expect me to be good in it in a day. WHO the hell you think i am , MACHINE? i wish i was, you can dump all the knowledge in me, and then , i'll be good, good like you want me to be. You think i wan to go against you all the time? who you think i am, the devil? Well, at least im trying , hear. IM TRYING TO MAKE YOU PROUD. But what you dont know, is that everytime you compare me to someone better it hurts like shit. and you know wad, since nicole is so good, go get her as YOUR daughter, AND DISOWN ME. she'll make you feel proud. Sometimes i dont know whether to be angry at you or jus sad.But life goes on anyway.
So.. i'll keep holding on..


-a whole lot of faith