I seriously think im weird.
I know, being friends with me is kinda funny cos, its always like im hiding something right?..you know maybe its jus my personality,I don’t know.well, im sorry if you think that of me,cos..the reason is that I’ve been betrayed so so many times.and maybe a part of me wants to hide away and help myself since no one can.like the only protector I have is myself.and well, its natural like when someone keeps making you feel down and out, you tend to take it for real.like when grace suans me in class all the time.(I’ll get back at her slowly, I promise)
So..im sorry if you think that about me.but you got to give me time to you know..trust in you that you wouldn’t leave me like the other people who perished at the sight of my tears and you know..make me even more hurt.but I reali need someone here in rgs, I got so many things to talk about.but.. its just that no one reali cares that much, its more to the academic side.now dun mistaken, I love rgs.i love it. Jus that..yea.. theres no one there.

When you said that, I knew I was feeling exactly like you.but its jus that I cant explain how I feel the way you do..cos im not very good at expressing myself from all the suaning and all the you know..making me feel hurt and lousy comments from other people.yea. and you know im not like.. very open to my feelings, I’ll cry inside and hurt myself jus to put on a façade so no one will think im..i duno wad im thinking ok.and.. its jus that..i wana say.. I reali liked you as a fren.we were reali close before but that all teared apart and I duno wad happen. You jus left me for another person. And ..i was jus left there with .. no one. And you don’t know how much I cried and cried inside. But I still reasoned with myself that its jus that.. im not your type and I don’t.. well… click with you the way you click with others? Cos im not up to it ok? Yea. I know.you might not even be talking about me right now on your blog. but yea.this is how I feel.. I feel lost and I wana hug you and tell you.. im right here. And I always WILL be.. cos.. its jus the way I am. And well, I’ll always be there.. cos.. im lonely. And I love you, I really do. Now im feeling the..uselessness of this post? Cos I dun think u’ll ever read it.and..its not like last time..when maybe..im saying maybe..cos I used this reasoning to make me feel better why you left me last time..well, maybe its becos you,knew no one in the ____ so much, so you went with me?i don’t know.but everytime I see you and want to wave to you like I do to all the others..jus as I put up my hand and shout, I stop myself..cos I see her next to you and you guys are having so much fun.and are in a deep conversation, one I will not understand becos im not in the same “click” as you? I don’t know. But recently, since you and her have been getting closer, I guess I’ll back out of the fight and well, see you happy. Thank you when you cheer me up, like wad ppl say..you always know the right words. But inside when you cheer me up, I dun take it seriously anymore..cos I dun like the fact that I would naturally be reminded how close we were last time.. and well. Be sad…so I no longer take wad you say to me seriously.cos, im hiding again. This reali is getting useless. Cos its no use. Victoria woo, your gnna be lonely again.but its ok rite? Cos, your used to it.and besides. Your pathetic.

And besides, she might not even be talking about me.cos, im not reali part of her anymore. But, nonetheless, she will be a part of me.

Its ok, its jus another setback that I will get over soon..right?




We were once together;
But we were separated;
Cos fate had it all written out;

But if we weren’t meant to be eventually;
Then why even bring us together in the first place;

But, ahwells..
I guess its all over now.
Right?