You are what you are and nothings changing that,
Yes I know its been a long long fight..but I guess it end today yup.all the tears.its really time to let go right?yup.let go.Cos when you said there was no trust at anymore.That was the line.Thou you didn’t say it directly..you said it as a “we’ll see” line,well,I guess that’s the end.yea.its been a long fight with myself,choosing my part of life becos of you..fighting with you?..yup memories.so many.like the one we quarreled till midnight before the day I had a match.and no dear,I don’t get what your trying to say.All I know was that I was on the bus waiting for your sms taking my handphone and checking it for you to sms once every few seconds.switching it off and on just to check that my handphone can receive your msg.but.no.NOTHING.I was at home,don’t gif me the excuse that your disturbing me.COS YOUR NOT,cos im at home.safely at home.im not in the middle of the road.i wun get hit if I read your sms,thou I wan to.doesnt that remind me of last year.yea.last year.About how I waitied for you to come back from your competition. And at the same time anticipating the scolding I’ll get form my parents.yes it reminds me.so much.i chose the sch I went to cos I knew that you’ll o to the other sch.but yea.its been two years.i should hav listen to my “mummy” and her best friend Amanda and my BESTEST FRIEND who still keeps in contact with me.yes.so leave me like you did for some other PRETTIER girl SMARTER girl like 2 years ago.SLIMMER than me.jus go ok..

Its like holding a rope.fr a relationship to really successfully be alright.2 peolple have to pull the two ends.and then the rope willl be STRAIGHT.But IF ONE LETS GO.the rope will go down and fall vertically down AM I RIGHT.yes it will.since you decided to let go today.

I dun think theres any reason to hold on anymore rite?cos theres no reason.
Cos you let go cos you decided to do jus that.

And jus when I talked to her asking if shes been talking to you and not me on that day.shes said shes talking to you now.so..you were ignoring me.yea. I get it.i get the FULL picture.dont you paint the picture differently on yourblog.COS THAT’S A LIE.dont tell the whole its ALL MY FAULT.ITS NOT ONLE MY FAULT.DONT YOU SEE.i’ve been accused wrongly so many times.

I didn’t know it will happen literally when I jokingly said.you got your girl and I’ll get my boy…but it did.so heres the final bow.the final walk.away.cos I dun wan t to hurt myself anymore.no more pain.i jus told her to take care of you.and cos ou know wheni walk away I’llbe waiting at the corner waiting for you.but yea.its time.i pick myself up.and walk away.

And when I walk away..the song I hate that I love you so plays on my radio.how coincidence,I do love that sone.but its time to not listen to it anymore.

Ok.i need go church shall blog later,but ..i guess.sometimes.. I’ll never be happy.

Lord,fill me.

boy,if you want me to let go..then say it to me directly.and i will.
im waiting for your answer,by the phone.ill be waiting for the whole day.