i love this picture.SO MUCH.

so many things going on,been disowned.but i guess thats ok.cos.cos cs you got someone else.wadeva..jus leave me.like everyone did.
dun wan talk anymore.cos i'll jus cry again.like i did last night.and lastlast night.and get eye infection again.

everytime im put on court i get so worked up and nervous that i think and think more than a gazillion times before i make one bloody move.cos im damn bloody scared aft being scolded so many times.im scared.im not using the current situation as the problem but.im scared ok.laugh at me all you wan.a dsaer losing her sparks.WADEVA.im freaking scared okeverytime i got training i wan to cry unlike last time where i actually look forward to it.cos i loved it.but now im scared,scared mrs j wil scold me again and then intrograte me?and ask me all the million questions about my life and get me started crying again like she did the other time.i didnt tell her anythig about him or wadeva ok.i jus cried cried and cried in front of her.and now shes giving up on me.everytime i go training i wan to cry.cos i no longer feel THAT nice warm feeling anymore.im jus trying to et thatmindset that netball is fun back trying..i need my big sister so desperately...

have to go do personal exposition now..haii.after i shower lah-.- haii.
im still staring at the phone.but i guess a part of me is missing..

ms heartbroken is still living inside me..somewhere.shes not dead yet..

yet.

ps.im quiting piano for breakdancing.i think i found sth i reali like now..