Current mood:happy,sad,depressed,disappointed.

All I can say in response to your post althou you didn’t ask for a response this time is..
A girl looking out of the window crying.yup.but anw,it takes two hearts like I said.one let go.the other falls.
but whether the other party who falls doesn’t lets go and doesn’t moves on then that person will forever suffer.so..yea..

shall not continue.
Its like I’ve been avoiding all this stuff lately jus keep dodging them.dodgedodgedodge.im doing chem. Pt now.information settled liao jus decorate and paste.so quite reliefing x) and netball tournament is tmr.not nervous or anything cos I’ll jus be working on my voice.even if I play,,I dun hav the mood to.in a sense I dun hav that..that feeling when I play netball anymore.ohwell,I dun even like hav the feeling lah.
Ohwell,hehe.dodgedodgedodge.studies?hehe.DODGEDODGEDODGE.haha/

aiya.i know im reliefing my pain like for a while y dodging all this problems and just smiling happily.but yea.i think its time I reali stand up for myself,do wad i wan to do.

And make use of wad I hav.aka.i tink I should sart going to the gym again.yup.ive been avoiding it for awhile,a lot of reasons ok.i got hit by my bro on the face.ok not exactly la.he was angry wif me cos I stood next to the comp when it was suppose to be my turn alrd mah then he angry kick me and hit me then my lips got cut lah.and like its inside can.so I cant like eat anything without getting stinging bites and silently screaming and crying.its painful lah.and its damn painfull when I brush my teeth loh.so ARh.aiya that’s jus one of the excuse loh.haii.EXCUSES VICTORIA EXCUSES.all this shit things im lying to myself.oh well,I shall go back to running a get back the weight I lost x) haha.you know no one notices when I lose weight cos it comes from my leg musles first x)SHHHH.hahaa.so yea.when I got sick I didn’t become super different.i jus lost all of my muscles and had to train from zero again.oh well,back to the start,everyday training x) training for single digit 2.4 x) hehe idid before ok x) once.HAHA.but still.shall get back into shape again x) back to the gym..

Soo..yea.i needa go liao.chem pt.and study for hinese test tmr.and chemistry and yea.back to sch.ITS MONDAY.and I shall tell my mum abt the dancing ting.by this week;and THAT ri guy dances very well :]

So guidelines for tmr:I shall..
..Do wad I hav to do with a positive mindset x)

im not letting go;jus taking drugs at the moment.so wadeva I say isn’t the truth but wad will be the best for the situation;
even if it means hurting myself.