..new blog skin yo.haii.start of the holidays yet I feel it’s the end alrd.mayb its cos I know that I will be wasting the holiday after planiing it so well.if you give me computer,I’ll stare at it all the day.i’ll talk to it.anything.my phones down.again.runnig?lost the passion.HAII
I WANT SOMEONE TO LISTEN TO ALL MY COMPLAINIg.
Chrystal is always busy..cos of different schs and she always makes me take the first iniative but anw,,haha,she still the best fren I got.someone I can trust.someone..i’lll be gogint out wif her soon!yay!x)

When I read your post,cos I asked for your blog url.and when I looked at it..i cried.im not making all this up saying that I cried at everything.i dun need your pity or your thoughts about saying that im jus saygin all this to make you feel better.wadeva eff the ppl who say that.i duno why but I jus am damn sad;cos I duno wad to do to tell you.im scared you’ll reject me and im scared I’ll destroy.and im scared tat..you’ll think like everyone else so I duno wad to do.ok.ive lost all the confidence I can have.wadeva I ever said can I’ve losst it.i jus want you to be happy.happy.happy with her.happy with her..i duno.i duno wad happen to you and her but..wadeva it is im sureand I KNOW that you guys want to be back together its jus that you guys dun know how to phrase it.i swear to you I know that you guys wan and desire the past so much.soso much I know ok.i know I know.cos I know wads on both of your minds.andim telling you.im telling you both of you guys want to be back together its jus that you duno how to say it.haii.but now I need to think how to phrase my sentence.cos.i’ll be mean saying all this to your face.im sorry.im sorry I m useless .im sorry I cant do anything.im sorry.
Jus shoot me.once and for all save me and help me.

Jiaming// I didn’t mean that.jus shoot me jiaming if I did say that.cos i’ll always be here x)yes jiaming forever and ever and ever like in the miracle worker.

Haha.and Nigel is like in the previous post yo!hahah.

This is directed to the someone who I talked to like this morning or aft before I went to the gym.that person know who it is lah.aiya.im sorry i cause so much pain and all the things you had to go thru and yea.like wad I said.if I do cause you pain and all.then i think its better if you jus leave me.like wad i said.i dun wan anyone to suffer for me but/I can suffer for you.thats my policy.ou cant change it.unless you knife point me and tell me to change even so it’ll jus be for tat day.haha.knife point me everyday?hha.so,if I hurt you.leave me.i deserve it.

The truth is I do love someone now.yes I do.yes I do.but the truth is..he does know it.im sorry I come running back to you everytime I got a problem.im sorry for disturbing you everytime.im sorry.im sorry when I promised you’ll I’ll back off and gif up but came running back to you.cos..mayb its cos I love you and I cant help it..im sorry.i jus hope..all I can do is jus hope.im praying .i love you.i reali do.

Tha holidays are or,yup,one day gone.one life gone.heh.netball taking up almost half heh.im trying to go to..shit I for got wad I wan to say.ahaha.yay someone is talking to me..

Haha,anw.wenqi is fucking evil.you effigy evil you know that.youre more bitchy then me can.stupid wenqi.althou I know your kidding.haha.\\

Sa?heh.i will always rmb wad jinghan and huimin and yiron said?
You cant believe I failed.and you jus had to empathise on it.yes.thanks.i failed ok.even mr lim was like.giving its over.ive lost hope it you.im sorry.OK IM SORRY MR LIM.after all the many ways you tried ot help me.i get you pissed off and all.im sorry soso sorry.im useless I cant even pass.can laugh at me lauh all you wan ok.lauhgh.whle I cry and think how to solve the prob how to tell my parents.laugh/laugh.go and laugh.jus go away.go awa.i hate you for empathizing it.aying you dun believe me.you go away go away.so your hurting me.you go away.cos you saw tears in my eyes then you believed me.i hate you.you go away.im alone again.isnt that normal?

And like I said,no one caught me when I fell.no one.
NO ONE.