...
im lost i reali am.
this is a totally contradiction to my previous post
im depressed.

extremly depressed.
literally.
not in love.
but myself.

yes.everybody makes mistakes
they learn from them.

but i cant from this mistake.


dont you understand.
no you dont.
nobody knows how difficult it is.
to smile even though you have tears in your eyes.

i had to do that.
after i saw the paper.
shocked.

the hurt reali took its time to activate.

its officially.
i suck.
end of story.
i reali sincerely feel that i dun deserve to be any of your frens.
i dun deserve anything.
so..

haii.
i dun think anyone can help me this time.
i dun wan jiaming to know.
cos.i'll be spoiling the" all grown up" picture.

iva who had so much hope in me.
even rushing to me asking how was it aft my paper.
im sorry i let all you guys down.

i dun wan tell chrystal..cos shes too happy to b sad.
i went out wif her today.

& to all those who tried to help me..
you cant.
cos you dun understand how it feels.
you dont.


i let so many ppl down.
ms tan.no.mrs jonathon.will come after me.
i suck in netball.i suck in studies.


i have enough lah.
im disgracing everybody.
im sorry.
sorry.
i reali am.

i let down my teachers.
i let down my parents.
i let down everyone.

im sorrry.
i can go on forever..saying im sorry.

im dragging on.
i dun know wad to say.

except im sorry.


i jus need time.


PS:thanks for your present pj;sorry for wad i did to you today;it was a joke;sorry;IM SO SORRY.SoRRY.