Friday, December 01, 2006,
heys....ya...i noe i have not been like posting...coz of my ma la....alll her fault!...hahahaha....hai ya....today went for training again...i like doing drillls la but....over there im like a total nobody lor...i used to play GD...but now i cant....why?....coz im tooo SHORT!....hai ya...my life.....hai ya...nothing to say....it...it...****....WEI HAN!...U ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE SUFFERING FROM BEING TOOO SHORT....AND FOR GODS SAKE....NO NOT GODS SAKE....FOR SOMEONES SAKE....U R NOT THAT SHORT....U R OK?...K?....haiya....anw ur shuai...so no diff....haha:):):):).....its true lor....i ms heartbroken....u mr shuai ge!...hahaha......i juz change my specs....after being blind...for a while....:):):)...ya but im stilll blind lor....blinded by LOVE....hai ya....after being in so much sufferings...what did i learnt????....u ask me..i telll u...aiya...dun wan...so long......haiya....nvm.....okay...
WHAT IS LOVE?>>>MY THEORY....NOT TT STUPID TALK....LOVE....
is sth one cant buy....
no matter how much money u have.....
u cant buy it...
unlesss u talking abt....
FAKE love...
that is another topic....
LOVE...
is what makes the world go round....
LOVE....
is sth better then anything in the world...
LOVE...
is better than happinesss.....
LOVE....
is what i have for him...__ ____ __
LOVE...
willl always be there...
no matter what happens....
rain or shine...
thunder storm or drizzle....
hurricane or tsunami.....
it willl be there....
n u cant get rid of it....
why?.....
coz its love.....
thats why....
LOVE....
true love....
is also what i have for him but...
that is not the theory.....
sooo.......
true love....
is a love that cant be forgotten...
is a love that willl always remain at the botten of ur heart....
no matter....
how far u are from the person who is ur true love....
u willl stillll remember tt person....
u willl dream of tt person by ur side....
Love...
is NOT a habit....
if it is...
its NOT true love...
its not even love....
its juz...
admiration....
n tts STUIPID....
its stupid if u mistake admiration for love...
Love....
is sth i reallly have for him....
not admiration....
n NOT infatuation...
infatuation...
is a crush....
a crush lasts...
only for a while....
unlike love....
Love...
is the root of sickness....
example...
ME...!getting sick becoz of this...Love...is the start of a new begining...start....n u wont stop...u cant help it...its not whether....u like it...or not...Love...is like...shit at times....when u cry over someone whos not worthwhile...its painfullly....i noe...becoz...ive been through tt...i cried at the corner of the room....i cried in the rain...i cried while swimming...i cried when i was sleeping...i cried....no one bothered....a shoulder was not present....i cried in my own arms....silently....i am suffering...i....was dying...i was born to suffer....Love...is where sacrifies r made...u lie to ur mum...u said u were doing ur hw...but u were talking to him/her....u dun hav time...there is a meeting mins away...but he/she is online....u go for him/her...say u were late becoz....u felll...Love...is the root of all evil...so wad....love rox...tts my view lah...Love is something im not gonna give up on...i may give up on my studies...but not on LOVE...its up to u...whether ur gonna believe me or not...coz i'll 100%....go for love...not studies....coz...love is a once in a lifetime thing...miss it n its gone...forever...studies...is juz a passing pase of life...but tts not the reason im gonna go for love...im not gonnna mention it...but i have stated the facts...im not gonna give up...i dun care if im the stupidest girl on earth....coz i noe my dream...tt is being with the one i love...haiyas....thats not even half of my theory la...but i dun wanna waste time thinking abt it....settle the problem happening at present first...im battling sickness....building up my skillls in netballl...trying to be the perfect girl in his eyes...im stilll sick...in fact...im actuallly worst...:'(...i cried ysterday....yes it was so painfully...i went to my ma...then she simply say...sorry cannot find cream....u deserve this actuallly...she said that....mummy i love u man....haiya....a few days ago...i met this uncle la....we not that close....but anw ...we met up...ok...ok....n one thing abt this uncle tt is "so callled"....unique...is that he goes...bloody here...n blooody there....bloooody everywhere....like say he does not reallly approve of this idea....he willl go like i willl think this bloody idea is blooody stupid....it was funnny la....then my parents were there...n i could tell they were like...so calll hinting him to stop saying tt word coz its like a bad example la....i almost said bloodly becoz of him la...haiya.......everything seems senseless now....everyday....go netball practise...come back dinner time....shower....beg for com....maybe play com....then go to sleeep....go to sleep....confirm have bad dream de....wake up...reflect on de past....then cry for alll the mistakes i made....in relationships....n in alll the other things i did....pathetic....i noe u might think im such a crybaby....im not ok....its juz tt the things i go through are juz not normal...i hav been used....tooo much....juz too much....alll i can say now is..................... whoever that stands by me...n be my shoulder will be loved n appreciated the most for the rest of my life....recently.....i have been in love with GUANG LIANG that tong hua+yue ding singer....not love as in love....as in love as in admire....i also felll in love with.....pop princess by click5 for some reason.....so damn nice la....haiya....tilll nxt time i got time....but for now......to him: i love you!...n i love you again...n i still love you...if only u said i was urs....n u were mine....i'lll be the happiest gal ever....LOL(lots of love-----not laugh out loud....:):):):):) ), ME! ms heartbroken....
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