And with one last breath,
The waves took everything that was left,
There might be a drought in the future,
But either way,
The waters drew back to the sea.

This isnt the only place.

I dont know whether i should write a new years resoltuion or maybe im just talking crap as usual, or maybe just want some closure, im not going to be HERE. anymore. I got some selfish things that i want to say but i figured out i should just drop it. I want to tell some people somethings, and put it anny mous here, i realise thats just coward if you dont dare say it in their face and put their names down.

im doing things so much differetly now, but im still me. Like wha ti tld Sam, its vicky with vicky, being like vicky. I am vicky. Not anyone else, and thats going to be how to is, Im living with that next year, actually.. now.

Yeah next years going to be hell difficult to me and well, i am really going to have to walk thru this fog in front of me now, and find my way out. And this time its different, cos I have to do this alone. You arent going to be there for me anymore.

Everything as consequences.
And when it comes back at us,
Face it strongly.
And fight back.
And thats exactly what I'm going to do this year.

How a heart can beat for a dream.
Refine a race till perfection.
Refine a heart's fire. :)

You know sometimes it feel like your walking into no where,
but you know you have to just keep walking,
Or you'll fall of the trendmill.
You dont know where to go,
but you have to go somewhere,
Even if its in the wrong direction,
you wont know,
you just know that you have to keep walking,
I lost faith today.

but i found another faith at the busstop-.-

But this time its different,
Cos im walking this path alone now.

Very very very fustrated. Gosh. -.-

Back to poems, my wound hurts really bad nowdays, I wish the pain will go away, but then again it’s the pain that reminds me that it was real. Heard that?

Gosh, my cut hurts so much now. D:

You made me smile, a rather different smile this time. It was superficial, it didnt go deep, but it was enough. Like Jacob. Thought about a lot of things through it. I found it quite amusing- me suffering and feeling, Gosh, what the shit have i been doing all this time, came out like that, like, what the shit have you been doing vicky. I found it quite amusing that i was in pain, and that i couldnt go on, but i found the strength to run the last stretch after hitting it numb totally, and just going for the best. That was enough, for me. Not high, but enough. But we'll aim higher next time. There is going to be a next time, i can bet on it. Cause i will fight for it :)

I know im totally confusing you with what im saying, but thats just how i want it, come here wondering, leave here.. wondering too, no mercy for you xD haha.

Went for HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACKFRUIT! on saturday, but had to leave early, and i had quite a journey back? HAHA. xD oh man.im feeling really hot right now, its kinda burning, maybe a fever, but i can live with it. i like feeling pain nowdays, when your young your afraid of superficial pain, but when your older, you rather that then emotional mental pain, trust me. cos your parents arent there to fix the screwed up problem you got yourself into anymore. its life.

On another note, me, my bro, and my dad- OH we are epic man. hahah. we stood in a straight line while taking a picture and guess what? im 16+, my dads 17+, and my bro 18+, nice right! (: hahaha. Kinda loved it when your gone, we curse openly at a stupid driver, i wanted to just stand in front of him to see if he'll drive into me, he was freaking going the wrong way. I dont mind you know. Somehow, i wasnt scared of anything anymore. When you've lost the most important thing to you. You'll understand. til then, just keep wondering and dont try it.

ohwell, doing CCBKLET, i have no confidance in my drawings. really.

Find the strength, and dont look back.
Dont break the pace.
Remember that?, I do.

What hurts the most? -your gone, and i miss you.
I can say it in your face. And i want you back.
Earn it.
Ohkay.

If you hurt him any further, I'm breaking up the whole family.
I don't want to be part of the assholes, who let you vent your anger on them.
I don't want to.
Its just so messed up, like you.